Sunday, May 15, 2016

Finding the Southern Cross: Day Hiking on Bolivia's Island of the Sun

Finding the Southern Cross:
Day Hiking on Bolivia's Island on the Sun


Austral autumn: April in the Southern Hemisphere. I'm sitting on the deck of my small guesthouse on Bolivia´s Isla del Sol--the Island of the Sun--wrapped in layers of wool and down, waiting for sunrise over the country´s Cordillera Real--its great Royal Range. Their snowcapped, 20,000 foot peaks dominate vistas from all points on the island. It´s been necessary to remind myself that I´m in the Southern Hemisphere, in the fall, and Lake Titicaca is actually 12,500 feet above sea level. The lake lies between massive ranges in the vast basin that comprises most of the altiplano of the northern Andes.

I’ve been on the Bolivian side of Lake Titicaca for over a week, day hiking on the lake's largest island. For the Inca, the lake and its islands were deeply spiritual. According to their mythology, both the sun and moon were born on this island. This was the sacred center of their world.

It´s been easy to slip into a circadian rhythm--wake at first light, follow the   sun´s diurnal path, then slip off to sleep when the sky has become a pallet of black and silver.

I start my day sitting on the deck of my simple guest house and watch the eastern horizon shade from black to grey to soft orange. The day is cloudless, the emerging sunlight white and dry, the sky a rich, deep altiplano blue that appears only at very high altitudes. The island comes to life.

There are no roads on this island--only ancient and extensive networks of paths built generations before. Two paths intersect below the balcony of my guesthouse. One heads northwest, to the other side of the island; the other climbs 200 steps to the island´s ridge, or drops 300 steps to water´s edge.

By 7:30 a.m. traffic is heavy: adolescents are hiking west to the island´s only high school and younger children are walking uphill to the small elementary school. Women carry hefty loads of handicrafts—colorful handmade woolen vests, scarves and ponchos made from alpaca wool, brightly designed place mats, and intricate silver jewelry with Incan designs—down to the lake where they´ll sell their goods to incoming visitors, most of whom just come for the day from the mainland. Men herd goats, sheep, llamas and donkeys in every direction. Within an hour the early morning flurry of activity settles down.

A sense of magic exhilarates me as I watch this morning´s ritual. I´ve not budged off the balcony since dawn and although this has been my routine for the past week, I still sit in wonder at what I see--an almost surreal feeling that I´m watching a film, set on a Greek island decades ago. Indeed, there is a deep sense of the Aegean here. The island exudes a strong Mediterranean feel. The sky is a cold, rich, brilliant blue and the lake reflects it back. But, a quick glance at the
Cordillera confirms that I´m elsewhere--on the altiplano, in South America—the ¨Tibet of the Southern Hemisphere.¨

It's hard to budge off the deck, but I've been perched there for almost two hours; it´s time to eat and determine the course of today´s hike. All meals on the island are simple and breakfast is no more than fresh eggs, homemade bread and coca tea, drunk at every meal to assist in acclimatization. During breakfast I plan the day. Earlier meanderings have taken me to the island´s two highest peaks--well above 13,000 feet--and down to its shoreline. Today, I will satisfy my wandering by attempting a relatively straight forward path across the island from Yumani, my home base in the southeast corner of the island, to centermost Challa, then on to Cha´llampa, in its northwest corner--a distance of about six miles. From past experiences, though, the island´s beautiful walking routes have had their own way of luring me off trail. I
don´t imagine today will be any different. I´m told it´s a three hour walk, but I know it will take much longer. Today´s trek, like all the others, will not be so much a destination, as a journey.

It´s easy to pack: walking shorts, sturdy boots, a long sleeved shirt, a hat and plenty of sunscreen. At 15º latitude south the sun is powerful.
By 9:00 a.m. the sun has climbed high in the autumn sky and the island has settled into a routine—young people are in school, adults are where they are supposed to be. Animals have been herded to pasture, farm or market, and I´m on my way. I soon leave behind the mud and adobe structures of Yumani. Dropping away from me and rising well above me are the ancient pampas, or garden terraces. Today they are harvest-ready and richly abundant.
I stop often--not so much to rest, but to absorb what surrounds me, to listen to the silence, to observe this marvelous space and to listen to the low, distant sounds of waves lapping the shore and peoples' voices hundreds of meters away. The trail I´m on is mid-point between the lake and the highest peak. To my east, snuggled in a great, white blanket of clouds, is the Cordillera. I marvel at the spectacular view of Illampu at 20,897 feet. The day is very still and the sun is mid-autumn warm. I bank my back against a rock, watch and quietly listen.

Donkeys graze above me. I hear their brays and the quiet clucks of chickens. Two people tend their garden, digging potatoes by hand. The quiet conversation between two gardeners soothes me. A woman strolls by on the stone and dirt trail with her flock of sheep. Voices: a child crying, two girls talking in the distance.

The only other sounds are gentle breeze, the bleat of lambs, a steady buzz of bee and insect. This is a deeply sensual start of day. It’s mid morning, and I have a long way to go, so I move on—this time above the track on which I started.

I leave the trail, cut through paths that adjoin garden plots, and explore the landscape. I´m high above the sapphire blue lake--incongruous, really, against the parched Bolivian high plateau. I round a bend and encounter a herd of unattended sheep. By now the sun is hot. The only sounds are wind and chirp of bird. An almost unbroken silence surrounds me. By now I´m far off trail, which is perfectly fine by me. It´s almost impossible to get lost on this island.

Once again the landscape beckons me to sit. Far below, on another track, I observe an old woman, her back stooped, carrying a large bundle of firewood. Other gardeners are within sight, their fields quilted in muted shades of greens and browns, harvests of wheat, quinoa, corn, beans and carrots.

I don't know how long I sit, but the sun tells me it´s past noon. The heavy scent of sweet smelling koa bush and an Andean variety of wild thyme waft in the midday sun. Insects hum. The presence of ¨now¨ is overwhelming. I want this moment to last forever, because it's unlike anything I've ever experienced while hiking. The high, snow-capped mountains, arid landscape contrasted against the brilliant blue of the lake and the almost-perfect silence center me in the moment.

But this reverie can't last forever. I realize I´m far off trail and that I still have a long way to go, so I gather my things, and walk downhill, following one of the many garden paths, through scratchy scrub brushes, past multiple gardens, some barren, others filled with autumn harvest, past stands of high grasses then past fields of ripened wheat. Finally, after passing patches of heady smelling lavender, I reach the main cross-island trail.

I´ve come mid-point on my journey. I´m high above Challa. The village rises from the lake to form a wide, green, V-shaped valley. March is the beginning of the dry season and by now fields and hillsides have begun to lose the luxuriant green of summer. Groves of eucalyptus and cyprus dot the landscape. Homes fan out in all directions. The track I’m on is half way between the lake and the island’s highest peak. I hear the voice of a small group gardeners. Crops are tended at all points of the island and because it’s harvest time, many people labor in their fields.

I orient myself to voices, and the delicious smell of baking, and walk towards them. Two people dig potatoes. Another roasts a batch in a small fire built into the hard soil. Their donkey grazes in a pampas above them. I greet them and ask how far I am from Cha’llampa. “Three hours,” one of them tells me. It has taken me four hours to walk these first few miles.

But it´s past mid day—time for lunch. Even though I have no appetite—one of the physiological curiosities of life at high altitudes--I pull out crackers and cheese I´ve carried from the mainland and offer them to my companions. They, in turn, offer me small, hot roasted potatoes.

Small, hot roasted potatoes! This is where potatoes originated, and their taste is more intense, more delicious than ones we know in North America. We share this stunning meal, made more stunning by the people with whom I share it.

The trail beckons. I have to get to the other end of the island in less than three hours, and even though I want to stop and take a nap in the warm April sun, I push forward. No more wandering off track for me. It's time to stop this magical zigzag. It's well after mid-day and I decide to stay on track and resist the urge to be lured off—no easy task.

The scenic trail winds through rolling, scrub-covered hamlets, around bays and through sunbaked groves of eucalyptus. All this hiking is done under the white luminescent light of the high Bolivian plateau.

How could time have passed so quickly? It's the end of the school day and children walk home. Teenagers ignore me, but not the younger ones. The girls are dressed in pinafore-like dresses and wear broad-brimmed straw hats with a ribbon running down its back.

“Candy?” they ask me?
“Pencils? Pens?”
“Photo. Photo.”

I take their photos, give them the coins they ask for. These children are beautiful, innocent, isolated in a safe cocoon from the wider world. They are part of the magic. Free, as they are, from outside influences, they live a traditional island life that keeps them isolated from the chaos that pervades life off the island. Out of necessity, many of them will find themselves leaving. There is no hurry here to grow up.

By late afternoon I’ve hiked the entire length of the island’s ridge. I feel as if I’ve been walking in a dreamscape--an Andean version of a glorious European fairy tale. All around are thatched-roofed adobe houses, their gardens fat with corn and beans, larkspur and gladiola. Zinnias and asters provide a dazzle of color. I feel a sense of triumph as I finally reach the dusty, lakeside town of Cha´llampa. It’s taken eight hours to meander from Yumani to here, but at this hour hiking back is not an option. I haggle with a pescador, settle on a price, step aboard his fishing boat and ride the cold, wavy waters back to where I started.

Back in Yumani, at shore’s edge, I begin the slow 300 step walk back up to my guesthouse—no easy task after a long day’s trek. I shower and soon I'm sitting on the terrace looking out at Lake Titicaca, at the last boats ferrying people from one side of the island to the other. It’s early evening, and the Cordillera Real is tinged in pink alpenglow. Day begins to close. On the track next to my hotel women shoo small packs of llama and alpaca up the hill. A team of goats follows seconds later. The aroma of someone's dinner entices me to begin the long, steady climb to the island’s ridge, high above my hotel where I’ll find a smattering of restaurants.

I’m not completely acclimatized to being at 12,500+ feet above sea level and my ascent, up steps the Incas built centuries ago and whose descendants still use, slows, at times, to a step-by-step crawl. I still get light-headed climbing and breathing is labored. When I ascend, everything seems to be done in slow motion.

The isleños are settling in for the night. Three women sit in a sheltered courtyard and separate grain. A girl and her grandmother herd their sheep into a safe enclosure. A flock of chickens cackle into the soft autumnal evening. I am suddenly startled by a herd of goats racing down the path; a drove of ten donkeys follow. All around me I smell good things to eat.

At last I reach the 12,800 foot ridge and sit on the balcony of one of several restaurants. None can be distinguished from each other. All have the same menu, the same terrace, the same fabulous view. A full panoramic vista unfolds. Daylight diminishes. A small armada of fishing boats plies the night waters for trout and kingfish. The sun sets quickly over the western end of the island. Time stands still for a brief moment; day lingers to twilight, then to darkness and cold. The sky overhead has changed from blue to saffron to inky plum.

Dinner choices are few and plainly served—fresh lake trout or an omelet, a light vegetable soup with quinoa and coca tea. Once finished, I put on my jacket, slip on gloves and hat and step into the clear, cold antipodal night. With no ambient light, the sky is alive with color, texture and design. Venus and a rising sliver of moon hang in the east. The Milky Way is a great, white river.

Before I pull out my flashlight to guide me down the Incan steps, I search the sky, find the Southern Cross, locate its two pointers, and draw an imaginary line to its axis. I turn 180 degrees, face true north and whisper into the deep and silvered night, “Home.”

Back in my guest house, I slip between cold sheets, beneath a pile of alpaca blankets, give profound and humble thanks to my Creator God, and drift off to sleep.





Friday, April 8, 2016

I'm Daniel Ladudavich and I'm from Slovakia

Mexico City
April 8, 2016

De donde viene? Where are you from?

It's not an uncommon question here in Mexico. I'm clearly not Mexican and if there are any doubts, my accent gives me away immediately.

In other years it's not been too much of an issue, but in this year of the rise of Facist Donald Trump and his anti-Mexican stance, it's downright dangerous.

Twice I've been verbally attacked when I say I'm American. The last time was the last time.

Now I'm Daniel Ladudavich and I live in Slovakia.

Quick. What do you know about Slovakia?

Precisely.

A month ago I was on the beach in Acapulco. The week before Semana Santa. I was alone. There was really no one on the beach except the guy who rented me the beach chair, and he was usually sleeping and not readily close by. Even the normal number of vendors had dwindled. It was the calm before the storm of the Holy Week/Easter madhouse.

Late afternoon. A guy is walking down the beach, stops, asks me in broken English where I'm from. Everyone just assumes I'm American. I tell him New York.

He smiles. “I used to live in Philly. I worked in a restaurant. I loved Philly. Philly cheese steaks.”

The he changes. Fury wrinkles his face. “My wife is still there. My kids. I was deported. I hate your country. I hate Trump.”

He begins screaming at me. He's a big guy—much bigger than the average Mexican—and he's scaring me. He gets closer to me. I don't say anything. Spit starts to spray from his mouth.

I get up. No one is around.

I'm not my country,” I tell him. Makes no difference. He's angry and I'm his target. It's happened before.

Had I been with someone it wouldn't have been so bad, but he was frightening me.

I get up, pack my things, start to walk in the direction of the beach chair guy, who's not there. No one is around.

This diffuses the situation. He leaves. I wait until he's a safe distance away, then return to my spot. It's late in the afternoon. I wait 'til the sun begins to set and make my way back to the hotel.

I tell myself that's it. From now on I'm from some place else.

Slovakia. Bratislava. Yeah. That's an idea. And if pushed, I work with the embassy in Mexico City. No one knows jack about Slovakia.

Which brings me to yesterday.

I stop into a mom and pop store to buy something.

De donde viene,” the owner asks me.

Europe,” I tell him.

Que parte?”

Slovakia.”

He then tells me how much Mexicans hate Americans.

Pemex. Isis. Drugs.”

He's right. The government's dropping the nationalization of its massive oil reserves and we all know who the market's going to. The monster that lives to the north.

He's right. George W. Bush—the good “Christian”--wages war with Iraq and look what happens. All hell breaks loose and Isis rises. Imagine what Ted Cruz, with his Messianic certainty, will do. Another good “Christian.” How the message of Jesus has been perverted!

He's right. Americans point their finger at the rise of the drug cartels in Mexico and blame Mexico without looking honestly at its own face. The drugs are heading to American markets. What is it about my country that requires so many people to drug themselves into oblivion? 

I tell him I understand, that being neighbors to a large super power is difficult. I tell him it's the same in Slovakia, that Germany eats up everything around it. I tell him we were part of the Soviet Union, and that I get it.

We've reached a solidarity, me, the Slovakian, and him the Mexican, against the mega-powers within our scope.

We shake hands. He needed to vent. Who knows what would have happened had I identified myself as an American.

So from now on I'm Daniel Ladudavich and I'm from Slovakia. And if push to come to shove, I'm from Bratislava and I work for the embassy.

But from now on, as long as I'm here, I will not be Dan Ladue, an American!


What a sad, sad commentary on the United States of America! How we have slid since 9/11!

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

67! 2/3 of a Century

March 30th, 2016
Mexico City, Mexico

The day I turned 25 was a cold, rainy day in Plattsburgh and I remember sitting in my easy chair, in the northeast corner of my apartment on Brinkerhoff Street watching the rain fall and feeling very depressed.  A quarter of a century!  How could that be?

Well....that was 42 years ago and I've live long enough to see a third of a century, a half of a century and today...a third of a century!

I've said this before, and I'll say it again. My father's words on his 80th birthday, more than 23 years ago, have held me well through the years: “I've had a good life.”

I've had a good life.” Such powerful words from him and I am grateful he said them, because it's a mantra I hold for myself as well. While I certainly have some regrets, the list of good things in my life is far longer.

Each day is a gift and each day is filled with good things. I try to give thanks daily for all God has given me.

A local Mexican friend, turning 50, recently asked me what wisdom I could convey to him. What have I learned in two-thirds of a century? Wisdom? I felt like an old man when he asked me, but he's an intuitive sort of fellow and he was very serious as he wanted to apply the applicable ones to himself.

  1. Forgive. Walk away if you have to, but forgive!
  2. Be grateful. “In every thing give thanks.”
  3. The glass is always half full. There is always something to be grateful for.
  4. Be generous with you time and with your resources.
  5. Take Dolly's Levi's advice: “Money's like manure. It's no good until you spread it around.”
  6. If there's something you want to do, do it! Don't wait.
  7. All theologies break down to this: unless you love others as you love yourself, and unless you love God as yourself and others, religion means nothing.

I could never have imagined 67 when I graduated high school in the class of '67. Now I'm a member of the other class of '67. Nor could I have imagined it that day in 1974 when I turned 25. I have far less time than more, and I keep cramming as much into my life as possible. Who knows when the bomb will drop. As a result, I embrace each day as the gift it is.

So how did I spend #67? I woke early, treated myself to a taxi and caught a bus from Tasquena to Oaxtepec, 3,500 feet below Mexico City in the balmy state of Morelos. I spend the day at a resort, laying in the sun, reading, writing, reflecting. At lunch I stopped in my favorite restaurant there, and when they told me it was closed, I said...”but it's my birthday.” A few minutes later the waiter came back with an offer—fish or chicken. “Chicken,” I told him. Then a few more minutes later he came back, this time with a waitress and a piece of cake. On the PA system Las Mananitas was playing—the traditional Mexican birthday song. I almost cried. The kindness of strangers.

Much later, back in Mexico City, my friend Gerardo showed up with a piece of cake, a candle and a gift—a license plate from the State of Mexico.

Two days later, at the Casa where I volunteer, I was feted with a cake, speeches (I've known these people since the days of CAFEMIN), Las Mananitas again and a lovely lunch.

What a birthday! The day just overflowed. It was a perfect start to the next third century!


Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Christmas Market Photos: Lille, Prague, Vienna, Bratislava, Budapest--December 2015



                            Lille, France  November 20, 2015


                                   Lille  November 20, 2015


Lille  November 20, 2015





                               Prague  November 28, 2015


Prague  November 28, 2015





     Bratislava, Slovakia  December 3, 2015


                                               
                                              Bratislava  December 3, 2015


 Bratisalva  December 3, 2015


                                    Budapest, Hungary  December 5, 2015


                               Budapest  December 15, 2015


                                Budapest  December 5, 2015


                                                Budapest  December 5, 2015


                          Vienna. Austria  December 7, 2015



                                 Vienna December 7, 2015


                                 Vienna December 7, 2015



Vienna December 7, 2015


                                  Vienna December 7, 2015


                                  Vienna December 7, 2015


                                   Vienna December 5, 2015

Sunday, December 20, 2015

In the End: Christmas Markets and Allied Cemeteries

Plattsburgh, NY
December 11, 2015
Latitude 46º 69' N

In the end, it was nice to travel off season. Still, December in Europe is busy because of, well, Christmas, but it's not like summer when hordes take to the road. There were seats on trains and hotels cost less. The weather was just fine—not warm and not super cold. I've learned a lesson—when you want to really see a place, come in the winter.

In the end I fulfilled a dream and saw Saint Nicholas come into Amsterdam's harbor. I also took in Christmas markets in five different places—Lille, France, Prague, Vienna, Bratislava and Budapest. What a dream come true. I know these aren't the last!

In the end, the Allied cemeteries of Flanders moved and stilled me. There go I, but by the grace of God...had I been a young man a hundred years ago.

In the end, I added one more country to my ongoing list of attaining 100! The Czech Republic was #92!

In the end, I reconnected with two old friends—Lomme and Ina in the Netherlands and Ruxandra in Vienna. How nice to see them again!

In the end, there was pitifully little sun. But I'd not travelled to Europe in December for the weather. What I got, instead, was a nighttime that dazzled with the lights and joy of Europe's Christmas markets.

In the end, the snow I'd hoped for never materialized.  There was, for a brief moment, a small snow fall in Southern Belgium and a snow squall I attempted to walk in, but the romantic idea I had of Vienna or Prague blanketed in a thin layer of snow never happened.  

In the end, I'd come full circle with Vienna and Budapest, constantly ran into the young man who spent wonderful time there in his 30's. But it's true that you really can't go home again, nor was I trying. Still, it was nice to re trace steps and relive in memory, another, more distant, time.


In the end, I learned once again that the world is athrill with beauty and excitement, but only if one chooses to see it. Despite terrorist attacks, despite the world's myriad problems, it truly is “a beautiful world.”

Friday, December 11, 2015

Budapest, Hungary, and the Summer of 1984

Budapest, Hungary
December 5, 2015
Latitude 47.49° N

During that special summer of 1984 I went to Budapest for a weekend. In those days there was an element of mystery about a trip like this, even it was close to Vienna. A sense of adventure followed us as a group of four classmates made plans.

Each of us had to make a trip to the Hungarian embassy, fill out multiple forms, hand over our passports then return on a designated date. Only then did we get the necessary visa to enter. This was pre-1989 Europe. The “Wall” was still up, and Hungary was Communist country!

And so on a Friday, after class, we made our way to Hauptbahnhoff, boarded a train and set off.

From the start we laughed. By that juncture in the program we'd been together about three weeks and the good chemistry that went on in the classroom and dorm was working its magic. I do not know what we laughed about, but we laughed all the time—from the time we left the dorm, the time on the train and our entire time in Budapest.

At the border, however, we were on our best behavior. We were slipping behind the Iron Curtain. All of us were NATO bloc citizens. Two of us were Americans.

The train stopped for a long time. Somber looking border officials and police came on board. They were well armed. Large scary dogs sniffed around us.

But we were good to go. We had all our paperwork in order—passports and visas and a round trip ticket back to Vienna. We were very polite to everyone and we barely said a word to each other.

Once that was over, once the scary dogs and officials were gone, and once we were moving again, we resumed our antics.

By the time we arrived in Budapest it was dark, and we were now a group of five. We'd met Elisabeth of Norway on the train and she joined our group. Someone must have met us at the train station and lured us to a student hostel—a school, I think--where we were packed into a classroom with bunk beds...and another traveler, Keith of New York. From the start he didn't like us. I think he'd been in that space alone until we showed up, and now he had to share it with this crazy group. Even after the lights went out we were like bunch of kids, cracking jokes, carrying on.

Saturday, we set out early. Jose and I alone to search out caffeine. At some point the five of us rendezvoused and Keith, the grumpy outsider, decided to join us. “Pretty Boy,” he'd call me. And you... referring to Anthony. We just laughed and laughed.

The six of us were all over Buda. We were all over Pest. We spent a few hours on Marsit Island, on the Danube, that separates the two Budapests. Sitting on those park benches in that park that day we'd make up stories about locals. “Slav whore draining,” Erika would say, about almost every woman sitting on a park bench. Slave whore draining.” How many times did he say that only to have us break into laughter once again.

That evening we were high in Buda. Just like the exchange between the dollar and the Shilling, the dollar against the Hungarian Forint was even better. We landed at five star restaurant, behaved ourselves, ate very well, drank far too much wine and hired roaming violinists to serenade us. Jose knew his music and would call out suggestions. We'd just ante up later.

After dinner we walked across the Chain Bridge and made our way back to Pest.. All of us were very drunk and even higher on hilarity. I can still see that small group happily enjoying each other's company, racing across the Bridge, laughing at just about everything. Maybe even Keith had succumbed by now.

The next day we did some more sightseeing and didn't leave Budapest until late Sunday night.

All that is a long time ago. I've since returned to Budapest twice—once in 1998 and again in December 2015. On this trip I was in search of Christmas markets. And thermal baths. But throughout my two day stay I could not help recall that wonderful, fun weekend of thirty-one summers ago.

Travel journals are wonderful things. Without re-reading the one I'd written in 1984 I'd not have remembered those special people who travelled together. Wherever you are Jose Fusco, I hope you're having a great life. Erika Brickman and Anthony Woolich...know that I remember you still and trust you have long ago finished your studies, are gloriously happy, and having phenomenal lives. If you read this, please leave a note.

My journal read that it was “difficult to capture in words the insane, riotous, crazy interaction amongst us. Perhaps never in my life had I had a more enjoyable, light-hearted, carefree weekend with group of people who got along so well.”

For awhile, Erika and I kept in touch. The following summer I rendezvoused with Jose in San Francisco, but the travel chemistry we had that special summer was gone. We never saw each other again, and that's OK. People come into our lives at different times for different reasons. I'm just grateful I have this beautiful memory of beautiful people on that beautiful weekend thirty-one years ago.

Most people are never this fortunate.

Vienna, Austria: December of 2015

Vienna, Austria
December 6, 2015
Latitude 48º 13' N

It's true you can't go home again. You can go back to what you once had, but it will never be the same. Once you leave a place, you leaeits imprint on yoiui

But all that was a long time ago, when I was a much younger man. It had been seventeen years since I'd last been to Vienna and thirty one years since I'd spent that wonderful summer is this glorious, imperial city.

Half a life time ago!

I felt like Rip Van Winkle this time around. Some weird time-travel teseracting was going on. I was here then; I'm here now. But how did all the people I knew here get so old? It seems like a few summers ago that I navigated this city. The Vienna that was imprinted in my heart was still the same Vienna, albeit in the winter. I kept bumping into myself: there I was in Rathaus Park studying. There I was again playing football in the park near where I lived with guys who truly knew how to play the game. I could see myself sitting in Votifkirche and in the Volksgarten. That was me in one of the amazing galleries of the Kunsthistoriches Museum. I was everywhere, yet it was just an illusion of myself—some phantom image that no longer exists. Time doubling back on itself.

In 2015 I am plagued with arthritis, a belly, gray hair. I'd already had one joint replacement and exploring this city tells me the other knee is going to have to be done much sooner than later. Aging.

In 1984 Vienna was far east, way off the normal European circuit. There were tourists here, to be certain, but not the hordes one sees today. For the most part, it was a touristically quiet city. Today I felt as if I were pushing my way through tourists. Kärtner Strasse was packed with people and it was Italian I was hearing most. The Japanese were everywhere and having their photos taken in every possible location. Do these people even take a look at where they are? Votifkirche, always quiet in 1984, was chock-a-block with people and both the City Hopper and Hop On/Hop Off Bus were parked in front. Global tourism in the first quarter of the 21st Century.

But today was all that counted. I'd come to enjoy every Christmas market this city would offer and I knew I'd not be disappointed. My goal was as many of the nine Christmas markets as possible. I was everywhere—Schönbrun, the Belvedere, in Rathaus Park, Maria-Theresien-Platz. I took a day trip to Bratislava and an overnight to Budapest and was delightfully happy with all the markets. I certainly wasn't let down, but by trip's end I'd had enough—at least for this year.

On my last day in Vienna, in a flurry of nostalgia, I retraced my steps. I tracked down the Albert Schweitzer House where I lived, had a Diet Coke and pastry at the Ankor bakery nearby, slipped into the building where classes were held. I meditated in Votifkirche and sat for a bit in Rathaus Park. The park was the setting for one of Vienna's largest Christmas markets and was almost overly decorated. Unlike 1984, there was no weekly Strauss Concert, but there were marvelous choirs and horn combos entertaining Christmas revelers with beautiful Christmas music. Somehow though, a five piece jazz rendition of Bing Crosby's Mele Kalikimaka just seemed out of place in elegant Vienna.

Here we know that Christmas will be green and bright
The sun to shine by day and all the stars at night
Mele Kalikimaka is Hawaii's way
To say Merry Christmas to you

Mele Kalikimaka is the thing to say
On a bright Hawaiian Christmas day
That's the island greeting that we send to you
From the land where palm trees sway

I wanted to grab a bathing suit, some sun screen, find a lounge chair and spend the day pool side. Instead, I listened then bundled myself against the snow and moved on.

Still, it was good to return to Vienna. I accomplished my goal: eight out of the nine Christmas markets, a retracing of my former life and a visit with an old friend. All of that was very good. The city was still as lovely as I remembered it, and even lovelier at Christmas time.

The only thing I didn't do was eat an ice cream.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Vienna, Austria...Schonbrun and the Second Sunday in Advent 2015

Vienna: the second Sunday in Advent 2015—the season of hope and longing.

The sky from my apartment is a pallid gray. A weak winter sun hangs low in the northern sky. Pale winter sunlight silhouettes the long allay of trees in the park across the street.

I bundle forth into the silver chill of this early December afternoon. The air smells of snow and in my flurry of Christmas nostalgia I'm wishing for wild wind and swirling flake.

I take the metro to Hietzing and enter Schönbrun through the back door. I want to take my time walking through these magnificent gardens. I've lingered elsewhere this early Sunday afternoon and don't arrive until 3:30. Already night is beginning to fall, helped along by a light fog that blankets the palace grounds.

Large clumps of mistletoe nestle in the high branches of trees. Except for the quiet cacophony of ravens and the distant hum of people talking, there is a holy hush this afternoon as I sit on a bench and observe. It's cold enough to see my breath. I'm grateful for wool hat and gloves.

All around me are the geometrically manicured grounds of Schönbrun—skeletons of what they are in the summer. Everything is gray on gray on black and I find great beauty in that coloration.

A think gray blanket of light fog has settled in as I approach the back of the palace. I turn and face the Glorietta which appears to float in the distance—spectral gray and lovely. Some would call this bleak, but the day bespeaks of the coming of Christmas—short days, long nights, the closing down of light.
I round the palace and come into a sea of Christmas! There is still lingering light and the sky has a tinge of daylight to it. It's that blue liquid time between night and day. The Christmas tree in front of the palace's butter yellow facade glows with thousands of lights. A choir sings Adeste Fideles in front of the tree. The universality of Christmas music in a place far from home. In a wide arc around the tree are scores of small markets. They sell everything: delicious treats, glass ornaments, and flat laser-cut wooden ornaments. Vendors sell wurst and punch. I resist all food except some German pfeffernuss. I get the feeling that the food aspect draws locals here. As I've seen in other parts of Vienna these Christmas markets are a gathering point.


Two hours later, in the dazzling darkness of early evening, there are thousands of people. Locals, tourists. Waves of Japanese. Americans. Italians. The market is a polyglot of languages, but what I hear most are German and Italian. I drink all this in, live very much in the moments of this wonderful experience. A new choir is singing Silent Night, but in German.

Stille Nacht! Heil'ge Nacht! 
Alles schläft; einsam wacht 
Nur das traute hoch heilige Paar. 
Holder Knab' im lockigen Haar, 
Schlafe in himmlischer Ruh!

It is all glorious, and I do not want it to end. A light breeze has come up and the night is getting cold, but the snow I've longed for does not come. In this sacred, holy night I leave the palace grounds, but steal one long glance back—at the palace, as the Christmas tree, at the sea of Christmas market kiosks. I give silent thanks to my creator God for allowing me this privilege.

Longing and desire. Fully met this shining second Sunday in Advent.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Vienna, Austria and the Summer of 1984

Vienna, Austria
December 6, 2015
Latitude 48º 13' N

I was 35 in the summer of 1984 and my traveling shoes had been active for more than ten years. When others just stayed him for the summer holidays, I'd be off someplace different. Some summers it would be the United States, but usually it was Europe or the Middle East.

The 1983-1984 school had been the worst year I'd taught since I'd begun teaching. I'd also just completed a Master's degree and the combination of the two had put me on an anti-depressant for six months. I needed a break and Vienna was going to be the place.

In the early winter of 1984 I'd read a small advertisement in the New York Times Education section. “Study German at the University of Vienna. Summer programs for Foreigners. For a free brochure...”

It was January, the time of year when I'd begin planning my summer-get away. I sent off a letter and month or so later the University of Vienna sent me a snazzy, and very tempting, brochure. Four weeks studying German, combined with living in a private room in one of the University's dorms would cost less that $400.00 US. $338.34 to be exact. That was less than one graduate course I'd been paying for for several years. I really had no interest learning German, but the what an opportunity: a chance to live in Vienna for a month!

So I grabbed the opportunity, and because my travels were never done in a straight line, I booked a flight to Rome, spent two week in Italy, and only moved on to Vienna a day before classes would be begin.

I knew pitifully little German. I'd had a tutor once a week since late winter and could count to a hundred, conjugate a regular verb in the present tense and could identify a few pronouns. That was it. I was pitifully unprepared for life on the street. On my first day, a Sunday, when the city had retreated into itself, I walked the main shopping street, Kärtner Strasse. I'd not eaten much because anything on a menu made about as much sense as this: *&^%$# #@%)_ )*&$##. I was delighted to see Burger King. Ahh...something familiar! I walked in and nothing looked familiar. Anything anyone said to this confused foreigner made no sense. I walked out and noticed, on close attention, that I walked into Burg Kino. A movie theater! I still laugh at that.

Once classes started, there was a pattern to my days. I'd rise just in time to shower, grab a Diet Coke and sweet bread at the nearby Ankor bakery, and get to class before 9:00 am. Three hours later I'd have lunch with some of the other students at the school cafeteria near our classroom. Afternoons I spend sitting in Rathaus Park reviewing the day's lesson, reading a novel and then moving on to do something “touristy.”

Other dorm and classmates became my “friends.” Classmates included an equal mix of refugees who'd been put in the class my the Austrian government and the rest of us—students from the USA, Australia, others parts of Europe. There was a mother-daughter from Melbourne; Nino, a fun young man from Italy, a group of zany college students from the UK. The other group included folks who'd come from the Philippines and a large group of people from Communist countries who'd been granted asylum. One young woman, Jewish, had just left Iran and was on her way to California to live with her grandparents. It was the first time in my life I'd known a refugee.

One of the students was a woman, a bit young than I, from Romania. Ruxandra was highly educated, spoke English, French, Italian and was not diving into German. She'd left Bucharest two months earlier because the nature of her job was going to require her to join the party. She was a well-trained engineer but had left all her documents behind. She also left behind her mother and her grandfather. “I'll make beds in a hotel room if I have to,” she told me. She just wanted out. I greatly admired her courage.

We became fast friends, and even though we were 180 degrees apart politically, we enjoyed each other's company. Almost every day we'd do something together, but it was usually at dinner that we'd meet.

After class and after lunch, I'd head first to Rathaus Park where I'd review the day's lesson, transfer vocabulary to a note book, smoke one cigarette after another, read and people watch. Part of that “sit” time included indulging in an ice cream cone. Austrian ice cream, eis, is still some of the best ice creams I've had in the world. I got to know the woman behind the counter and learned all the names of every flavor. I let her knew I was studying German and she became the first person I “spoke” to.

As part of tuition to the University, students were give a free pass to the Kunsthistorisches Museum. Every day, and I mean every day, I'd walk to the museum and explore one room. One room only. I have never been able to sustain hours in a museum, so this was perfect. It was the most pleasant museum experience I've ever had. From there I'd explore some site within the Ring.

I also took Viennese Waltz lessons, but could only dance to the right—the only time I've ever shifted in that direction.

I loved living in a dorm again. I had my own quiet room, maid service once a week, and the pleasant camaraderie of other students. One of the guys I got to know there was another American, XXXX, a year or two younger than I. We go out periodically to bars and come home late and drunk. It was like I was back in college again.

Once a week I'd walk down to and slip into the American Express office. I'd cash a few travelers' checks and get my mail. In those pre-Internet days this was one of the few ways to have an address in another country. What a sweet surprise to get a letter from home. I still have them, tucked away in the back of the journal I wrote that summer.

Each night either Ruxandra would meet me for dinner or I'd eat at a local schnitzel house. The exchange rate against the Austrian shilling allowed me to eat every meal in a restaurant, something I rarely do today when I travel.

Twice a group of us took off for the weekend. First to Salzburg and Munich and the following weekend to Budapest, a trip I still hold dear to my heart.

Early in the program I realized I didn't care a rat's ass about German. What I did like was going to school, interacting with the students, staying in a dorm and having the privilege of living right of the
“Ring.” I'd go to class, do my homework, study, put the German to work on the streets, but I refused to take tests. I'd just finished that Master's degree and was plum-tired of real academic work. I did not endear myself with Hannelore, our tireless, and very good, teacher.

Every Tuesday I'd attend a free all-Strauss concert in the garden in front of the Rathaus, a ten minute walk from where I lived. It was mostly a local crowd, but I'd see the occasional tourist every now and then. In 1984 Vienna was far off the European tourist circuit and far enough east that it didn't get heaps of tourists, and only a few of them would be at this concert. The same people seemed to be there each week—old ladies, mostly, who'd tap their feet to the upbeat waltzes this father and son team composed a hundred years earlier. It was one of the highlights of my week.

By summer's end I could navigate a small neighborhood of German. I got the hang of putting the second verb at the end of the sentence. I could have very minimal conversations with people. I could identify every type of ice cream in the Eis Salons.

And sometime that summer I'd jettisoned the anti-depressant I'd been on since winter. That horrible school year and the mad-dash completion of the Master's degree was fully behind me.

On the last night I was in Vienna before returning to Rome, a local friend asked me what I wanted to do. “Eis,” I told him. “I want one more amazing Austrian ice cream.”

His name was Wilhelm Böhm and he told me he'd take me to Vienna's most popular place for ice cream. How could this not be great!

The line was long and when I chose my flavors—quite adeptly in German—imagine my surprise when I bit into American ice cream. Well, I was disappointed. Who wouldn't' be.

Later that night I boarded an overnight train to Rome and few days later touched down in New York city where Steve was waiting for me. For a few weeks I'd say entschuldigung when I bumped into someone, but that didn't last long. I found a tutor to continue my studies, but that lasted for about a month. Where was a going to use German? Pretty soon any German I did learn was soon forgotten.

But not Vienna nor the summer I spent there. It became a benchmark for other summers, one to be compared to, one I'd hope would happen again. Other summers were equally great; others not so. In my travel nostalgia I'd often daydream of Vienna, sit in one its lovely parks, eat eis, listen to Strauss waltzes in Rathaus Park.

A summer later would be a stay-in-the-USA summer, and I made arrangements to meet one of the American classmates in San Francisco, his home town. The visit was stiff and uncomfortable. Whatever friendship we'd had was one of those temporary on-the-road things the young forge amongst themselves. We never saw each other again.

Over the years I would return to Vienna several times. More than anything, I wanted to share this beloved city with Steve, and I did—two years later. Each time I'd reconnect with Ruxandra. In 1998 her mother had retired and was living with her in an apartment in the city where I was invited to stay. It would take 17 more years before I saw Ruxandra again—this time in Spitz in the home she shared with her new husband of five months.

I loved being able to say “I lived in Vienna” and when asked what I thought was the most beautiful city in the world I'd always give credit to this spectacular, elegant, imperial city.

I miss those glory days, though, when Vienna was far east of the European circuit, before the days when cheap air travel ferried people back forth within Europe for mere dollars.

And I miss ice cream. It just doesn't seem to be as prevalent today as it was then.


I have never lost my affection for this city and probably never will.